time for a few more prayers and positive thoughts?

my uncle, norton buffalo (harmonica player for steve miller band and roy rogers, etc.) was diagnosed last week week stage IV adenocarcinoma (non-smokers lung cancer) and brain cancer. please keep him (and my dad's baby sister, lisa) in your thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.

here's an (admittedly old) awesome video of him playing with bonnie raitt. watch for the harmonica solo around 1:30. :)



and a music video with roy rogers!



and finally, because he just finished his annual tour with steve miller band...a throwback, also with a solo.

on life and death and the cat snores on

i overheard miss p and renzo having the following conversation this afternoon:

r: why is the (s)pider still dead?
p: everything dies...it's dead.
r: it's dead?
p: you'll die!
r: but...i'll die? but then we can't wear clothes!
p: we can't all live forever. then the houses will all die.
r: then where will we live!?
p: everyone dies lorenzo.
r: *forlornly* but then we can't pet doggies...

the relapse

so, all these transitions have apparently overwhelmed miss p afterall. friday evening she broke down crying and asked me if we could just cuddle for a while. i asked her if she was liking school and she assured me that everything on that front is fine. when i pressed her a bit about what was bothering her she burst out that she misses ina (her play therapist) and why does daddy say he's going to do something and then not do it? she alternated between saying things like he shouldn't make promises he can't keep. friends don't do that, do they? and he probably just had to work, that's probably why he didn't come (to the first day of school), right mama?

i don't want to lie and make excuses for him but how do you tell a five year old the truth about this situation? i'm very happy to see that she's working these things out in her own head, that she's questioning things and setting boundaries. i don't know if she should broach these subjects with her dad or if there'll be time for that later. in any case, at the moment she's bent on punishing him the only way she knows how, by choosing to stay with me when he comes to pick her up.

we was robbed

no really. this morning as the kids and i were leaving for school i discovered that d's truck had had it's passenger window smashed and the door left wide open. his gps and a few other things were stolen. GAH! the police came and took a report but the likelihood of recovery of anything is slim to none.

p finished her first week of school with very little drama. this morning was a little rocky but i think that she was shaken up after the broken window ordeal. her teacher said she sniffled on and off during the day but she made it and was pretty pleased with herself for completing a whole week of kindergarten. ;) she's made a couple friends already and has come home with copious amounts of artwork/practice pages.

well dammit, there goes father of the year...

miss p did it! her first day of school went swimmingly. no crying (either of us). she made three friends, can't remember what she did but knows that she had lots of fun. she's brimming with confidence and excited about tomorrow. i expected after a six hour day she'd be exhausted but she came home ready to play some more.

as for bk, after making a big stink yesterday about coming to miss p's first day of school (texting me: what time does school start? and what school does she go to? *bangs head on wall*) he didn't show. he acted insulted when i questioned his plan to come. it's her first day of kindergarten, of course i'm coming. and then, three minutes before the bell rang this morning i got another text (not even a phone call) saying: not gonna to make it. :( give parker a big hug and kiss and tell her i love her! i will come by the house later. and then didn't even come by!

you know what: eff you for letting her down SO many times that she didn't even give a shit when you didn't show up. she was more excited that papa vince came over at 7.30 this morning for the express purpose of wishing her luck and giving her a big first day of kindergarten hug. here's what you missed!